Tuesday, September 28, 2010

And so it begins.....

Well, I guess this is the beginning of me questioning if I'm going to be a good mom or not!! I had a feeling this time would come, but hadn't really worried about it yet, which was starting to worry me if that makes sense :) I was like, okay, am I BAD mom for not WORRYING about if I'm gonna be a bad mom?? Oh, the thoughts of an emotional pregnant chick! Anyways, I had a nightmare--okay, more like a worrisome dream--that I had already had Tommy. I couldn't see his face (darn it!!) but I could hear him crying, so I went upstairs to make a bottle. Well I couldn't figure out how much formula to mix with how much water. The baby kept crying and the can didn't have instructions on it and I was in a total panic and kept thinking I was a bad mom because I was going to give my baby watered down formula and then he wouldn't grow.....it was just a crazy dream!! I woke up and was thinking, oh brother, here we go. It all started because I watched my baby cousin on Saturday and she wouldn't eat and was just crying hysterically for like 15 minutes and I tried EVERYTHING before I texted her mom who told me to just feed her through her crying because she was probably hungry. And it worked! She was a good little baby after that and I started thinking how much I have to learn before Tommy is born and how much I have to DO before he's born. I need to get the nursery finished, clean out a few closets and I feel like I need to sterilize my house top to bottom and baby proof everything. I try to remind myself I'll have a few months AFTER he's born to do some stuff too since he'll pretty much just eat, sleep and poop the first 2 months, but it just gets so overwhelming!! How come you have to go to school for years for something to learn a bunch of stuff you don't need to know but when it comes to being a parent, they just throw you out there and tell you to sink or swim?!?! Okay, I'm taking a deep breath now :) Just needed to get all that out there. I know everything will be okay and we'll learn as we go. I just have to remind myself that God will get us through it and even make it fun!!!! Onto a more positive note, I LOVE FALL!! This cool weather is making my day!! I can't wait until all the trees start turning colors and it stays cool and crisp all day, every day!! I want to wear sweaters and cardigans and jeans and boots and scarves......you get the picture :)

Monday, September 20, 2010

It's a ZOO out there!!

Sunday was Nick's company picnic and it was at the zoo. I invited my sister and our niece, Isabelle. We had also invited our niece Mackayla but she was running a fever and according to her mom, was not very pleasant :) The picnic started at 12:30pm and I was really excited.......until we got there. I swear, we've had 70-80 degree weather all week and then BAM!! 500 degrees on Sunday. I think I lost about 10 pounds from sweating (okay, I weighed this morning and I have NOT lost weight-haha---gaining weight with this pregnancy is actually a huge mind struggle for me. It's like you try your whole life to maintain a certain weight and then you've just lost control!!!-but that's a whole other post in itself). So anyways, it was REALLY hot. I expected a meltdown from the niece, mainly because I was getting ready to have one myself, but she did GREAT!! No complaining, no whining and she had a good time. I was SO glad! But let's just say the zoo has totally lost it's appeal. It's not as much fun when you're 26 as it was when you were 10. Interesting, but not fun. Especially when there's no wind or anything. But I am glad I got to spend time with the hubs, sister and niece. They made it enjoyable. I did feel like I was gonna go into labor any time with all the walking we did, but luckily, Tommy stayed inside! Okay, I wasn't really close to labor, but it felt like it at times! As soon as we got home, it was shower and NAP TIME!!! Yay!! I'm starting to LOOOOOVE naps. Although I didn't want to sleep too much because I wanted to spend time with Nick. He left today on a 4 day business trip :( Boo. That makes a looooong, boring and scary 4 days for me. I was just thinking the other day what life would be like if I was single. I'm such a homebody that I don't really like going out, so I can't imagine coming home every day to an empty house. Thank you Jesus for an awesome husband and soon-to-be awesome son!!! Moral of the story---don't go to the zoo between May and September. Wait until the winter!!!!

Thursday, September 16, 2010

SCOOOOORE!!!!

So the other day, my friend Mary tells me that her sister in law is having a garage sale and getting rid of a ton of maternity clothes. She asked if I wanted to look at them first and I was like, "Uh, yeah! Duh!" So she comes in a few days later and says, "I brought the clothes and they're back in the break room." So at lunch, I headed back there and holy casserole, there were clothes EVERYWHERE!!! Our break room looked like a used clothing store. But I was stoked because that meant OPTIONS!!! I've been wearing regular shirts (that are getting a little tight and just make me look extra pudgy rather than pregnant) and I have 2 pairs of maternity jeans that I am SO tired of wearing already. Lol, on a side note, Dr. Shah walked into the break room shortly after I did and his eyes got really big and he just stood there for a few seconds. I just laughed and said, "I didn't do it!!" He said, "I did not say a word." And then he turned around and walked out. FUNNY! But anyways, back to the clothes!! I took a bunch home hoping they would fit but not really holding my breath because clothes are really hard for me to find. Well guess what!! Oh glory day!! They fit! I got 6 pairs of maternity pants--3 khaki, 2 jeans and 1 pair of nice black pants--and I got 7 shirts all for $25!!!!! It was such a blessing I almost cried! I love dressing up or at least decent but for the last few weeks, I have totally understood why most pregnant women wear sweats and big t-shirts--because you're not really comfortable in anything else. But these clothes fit great and look great and I am SO excited to wear them! So I just had to share that little bit of good news!

Monday, September 13, 2010

MOVEMENT!!

So I FINALLY felt Tommy move!! I've been praying that God would make me feel him move and that I would KNOW beyond a shadow of a doubt that it was Tommy and not gas :) Well I was listening to the heartbeat with the Doppler and BAM! There it was! He kicked pretty hard against the Doppler and I KNEW that was him! And now I've felt the flutters ever since :)

I LOVE IT!!

 It's got to be the coolest feeling in the world to know that there is something alive inside of you and it's moving around!! I am excited for when Nick finally gets to feel it. That'll be so fun!

The nursery is coming along slowly but surely. It's painted tan and we got a dark cherry crib and dresser. Then I got some curtains that are brown fabric with little owls on them with blue and green polka dots in the background and it's so cute! I found this little owl lamp at Cracker Barrel that I just LOVED!!

I never thought my nursery would involve owls, but they're just so stinkin' cute! So I'm going to just decorate the rest of the nursery in brown, blue and green with touches of sports and "man stuff" at Nick's request. Why do I have the feeling my whole house is going to quickly turn into a man cave?? Hopefully I'll learn how to be a boy's mom quickly--catching frogs and learning football and peeing outside. Okay, I'm not going to pee outside, but I just KNOW my son will :) I've caught his father doing it a time or two. Dear God, prepare me for the months ahead where my estrogen will be out ruled by testosterone! Thanks!!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

It's a Tommy!!

Well we FINALLY found out that we're having a boy! His name will be Thomas James (Thomas after Nick's dad and James after Nick's middle name). It started out not being my favorite name in the world but it's growing on me. We are going to call him Tommy (because it's cuter). I have to admit (and I feel like a bad mom for saying this), while I was VERY happy to know it's a boy and that his spinal cord and brain are normal, I was slightly disappointed it wasn't a girl.

Stupid, I know, but I just had it in my head it was going to be Tessa, not Tommy.

But that changed when I started shopping for the nursery. I bought some letters that spell out his name and hung them on the wall above his crib. Then I bought some really cute curtains and some football and fishing stuff. Decorating the nursery--making a room with someone specific in mind--has helped me to feel like I'm getting to know this little guy and love him even more. I am SO excited to see his face and his little fingers and toes. And I have become very happy with the idea that we're having a boy (it may have taken a few days, but it grew on me!).

When I hung his name on the wall, it hit me and made me cry a little to think that soon, this room would be completed by the perfect accessory. My little guy Tommy. It makes me tear up now to think about how he's going to grow up in our house and make our lives so complete. Who knows, maybe I'm just over emotional, but the further along I get in this pregnancy, the more real it's becoming to me and the more excited I get!

Now, if I could only feel him kick!! I'm pretty sure I felt it the day of the sono. I had to drink 30 some ounces of water and so my uterus was pretty squished since my bladder was so full. And I SWEAR to you, he was using my bladder as a trampoline. I just kept feeling this little pinging feeling that couldn't have been anything else. I've only felt it a few times since then and I have myself convinced now that it WASN'T the baby, but I don't know. I guess I'll know for sure at SOME point if that's what I'm feeling or not. I can't wait until he gets big enough for Nick to see him moving around. I remember when my friend was pregnant and we would watch her stomach and just see little elbows and knees going from side to side. It has to be one of the most AWESOME things ever and I can't wait to see what it feels like! So I'll update more later and TRY to get pictures of the nursery up when it's further along!